Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know.

Once again, I find myself lacking the words to say what I’m thinking — only to discover that someone else has had the same thought! So here’s are ThoughtCatalog’s imput on happiness. Plus a little pep talk because life is hard.

I’m in that awkward stage of life where I don’t know which Taylor Swift song to blast. 22 or Never Grow Up? Both lyrics seem to apply. I’m both “happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time” while realizing that this whole world is “so much colder than I thought it would be.”

Adulting is a difficult thing, especially in a new city that you don’t love, with roommates/strangers who you barely know/understand. It’s important to remember the motivation behind the whole ordeal and I’ve been repeating it like a mantra. It’s all for the resume, baby.

And that’s the most difficult part of all. When people ask how it’s been, I’m flooded with dread and despair at the fact that I’m only halfway done. But in the moment, I don’t remember it being that bad. For the most part, I enjoy what I do.

I mean, I wake up not wanting to go to work. While I’m there though, it’s not terrible — I’m just filling in hours until I can go home again. Isn’t that what work is? That’s what I’ve always seen and what I’ve always been taught.

Maybe I should listen to Shake it Off instead…

Treat your makeup like jewelry for your face.

10 Reasons Why I Wear Red Lipstick:
1) Because I will never deny myself the chance to look as fierce as Tyra Banks while channeling the exact same shade as Taylor Swift (Dragon Girl by NARS…you’re welcome).
2) Because the bright color makes my cheeks look perfectly flushed, draws attention away from the dark circles under my eyes, and makes my teeth appear whiter
3) Because I believe in dynamic first impressions
4) Because everyone needs a little color in their life
5) Because it’s the little things in life that mean the most, especially when it’s a 2-second swipe of confidence in the middle of a bad day
6) Because you need to leave your mark on the world — even if it’s only pressed on the rim of a coffee cup
7) Because it reminds me that I can do what makes me happy without depending on the opinions of others
8) Because it adds the finishing touch to an outfit
9) Because it helps me create a unique look all my own that sticks in people’s minds
10) Because I can happily look in the mirror, smile at myself, and remind myself that there should be a drop of fun in every day

“All this time, and you speak to me as though I were a flighty pinprick of a girl. I am a magician! Did you ever think, even once, that I loved lipstick and rouge for more than their color alone? I am a student of their lore, and it is arcane and hermetic beyond the dreams of alchemists. Did you ever wonder why I gave you so many pots, so many creams, so much perfume? …
Cosmetics are an extension of the will. Why do you think all men paint themselves when they go to fight? When I paint my eyes to match my soup, it is not because I have nothing better to do than worry over trifles. It says, I belong here, and you will not deny me. When I streak my lips red as foxgloves, I say, Come here, male. I am your mate, and you will not deny me. When I pinch my cheeks and dust them with mother-of-pearl, I say, Death, keep off, I am your enemy and you will not deny me. I say these things, and the world listens. Because my magic is as strong as an arm. I am never denied.”

― Catherynne M. Valente, Deathless

Polar north can’t escape a magnet. The magnet will find it no matter what.

You ever have those moments when you feel like you really know someone that you’ve never met and then it sinks in how stupid you sound and you finally accept the fact that you will never know them because there is always 1000 miles between you and your “could-have-been-but-not-really” best friend and you wallow in the fact that you still don’t know them?

Anybody?…just me? Okay, that’s fine.

I would love to go have a coffee with Taylor Swift. She doesn’t have to sign a picture. She doesn’t have to take a picture. I don’t even have to put the meeting on any kind of social media. I just want to talk to her and listen to her take on life. And love. And music. And a lot of things.

Unfortunately, I’m not on Instagram and so will not end up like any of these lucky girls:

I’m pretty sure she’s not on WordPress and there’s no way that she will be able to find little ol’ me on this little ol’ blog, but I figured I would share that longing with you all.

And Taylor, if you’re reading…I’m free for coffee at midnight.


Confession time: I’m a Swiftie.

I don’t know you but I have something to tell you.

I have a confession.

I love Taylor Swift.

I know all the lyrics to all of her songs (ask my roommates).

I have listened to her 1989 cd on repeat since I bought it the first week it came out (ask my roommates).

I have a beautiful red lipstick from Urban Decay based on Ms. Swift’s obsession with the color and I started wearing lipstick because she started wearing lipstick (my roommates have borrowed this from me so you can ask them). Oh and yes, I plan on buying “Dragon Girl” by NARS because I read on one of her posts on Tumblr that she loves and wears this color.

I cut my hair in a short bob a few weeks after she mentioned in a magazine that she was tired of long hair — and yes, she did end up cutting it. And yes I realize that this last fact pushes me over the edge just a little bit but I’ve done a fairly good job at concealing my inner fangirl, yeah?

I would even consider this woman I’ve never met to be one of my role models. I have never ever ever (sorry! couldn’t resist 🙂 ) been to her concert but it is one of my dreams. Maybe one of these years, I’ll eventually make it a resolution to buy a ticket and treat myself. Until then however, going to one of her concerts will be a temporarily unattainable dream.

If I could, I would like to meet her in person. Just to see if her face is as matte as it looks in all the pictures and if her lipstick is truly that flawless and if she’s really just as tall and awkward in person. And because I would really like to drink coffee with this woman. I mean, really, she’s just the sort of person that I would like to go and have coffee with.

I don’t want to give off the impression of a crazy fanatic or insist that we will be best friends, but I just want to meet her and let her know that I truly respect her as an artist and love her work. Is that so much to ask for? I mean, I go to Bethel College which is pretty close to Notre Dame and I know a person who knows a person who has a class with her brother…we’re bound to run into each other sometime, right??

Nah, probably not. But just to top off this shameless confession, I’ll end it with one of my favorite Taylor quotes:

“One terrible truth I’ve discovered is that we don’t just have a bad day or a bad month. Sometimes we have a bad year. Sometimes we feel like we have no control over the endless waves of bad luck we seem to be experiencing. But one thing you do have control over is your outlook. Your mindset is yours to control and as hard as it is to step back from the situation and have blind faith that things will change for the better, it’s our only option other than ending up in a downward spiral.”

So, Ms. Swift, I don’t know you.

But I have something to tell you.