I always have a quote – it saves original thinking.

“To be seventy years young is far more cheerful than to be forty years old.”

– Oliver Wendell Holmes, Sr.

I feel old tonight. Maybe it’s finally sinking in that I’m nearing the halfway point of my college career. Or maybe it’s watching four college boys playing ping pong and realizing that I will never be as young at heart at them.


Confession time: I’m a Swiftie.

I don’t know you but I have something to tell you.

I have a confession.

I love Taylor Swift.

I know all the lyrics to all of her songs (ask my roommates).

I have listened to her 1989 cd on repeat since I bought it the first week it came out (ask my roommates).

I have a beautiful red lipstick from Urban Decay based on Ms. Swift’s obsession with the color and I started wearing lipstick because she started wearing lipstick (my roommates have borrowed this from me so you can ask them). Oh and yes, I plan on buying “Dragon Girl” by NARS because I read on one of her posts on Tumblr that she loves and wears this color.

I cut my hair in a short bob a few weeks after she mentioned in a magazine that she was tired of long hair — and yes, she did end up cutting it. And yes I realize that this last fact pushes me over the edge just a little bit but I’ve done a fairly good job at concealing my inner fangirl, yeah?

I would even consider this woman I’ve never met to be one of my role models. I have never ever ever (sorry! couldn’t resist 🙂 ) been to her concert but it is one of my dreams. Maybe one of these years, I’ll eventually make it a resolution to buy a ticket and treat myself. Until then however, going to one of her concerts will be a temporarily unattainable dream.

If I could, I would like to meet her in person. Just to see if her face is as matte as it looks in all the pictures and if her lipstick is truly that flawless and if she’s really just as tall and awkward in person. And because I would really like to drink coffee with this woman. I mean, really, she’s just the sort of person that I would like to go and have coffee with.

I don’t want to give off the impression of a crazy fanatic or insist that we will be best friends, but I just want to meet her and let her know that I truly respect her as an artist and love her work. Is that so much to ask for? I mean, I go to Bethel College which is pretty close to Notre Dame and I know a person who knows a person who has a class with her brother…we’re bound to run into each other sometime, right??

Nah, probably not. But just to top off this shameless confession, I’ll end it with one of my favorite Taylor quotes:

“One terrible truth I’ve discovered is that we don’t just have a bad day or a bad month. Sometimes we have a bad year. Sometimes we feel like we have no control over the endless waves of bad luck we seem to be experiencing. But one thing you do have control over is your outlook. Your mindset is yours to control and as hard as it is to step back from the situation and have blind faith that things will change for the better, it’s our only option other than ending up in a downward spiral.”

So, Ms. Swift, I don’t know you.

But I have something to tell you.


My reflection has sadder eyes than I do.

I wanted to write down
exactly what I felt
but somehow
the paper stayed empty.

And I could not have
described it any better.


I’m not sure what’s going on today, but I’m in a weird funk. I’m apathetic about everything. I was able to sleep in 30 minutes and I had extra time to get ready this morning. I was productive and was actually able to curl my hair and out on cat-eye eyeliner. I love the sweater I’m wearing. I drank two cups of Earl Grey tea (my personal favorite). And yet…somehow my attitude stinks of apathy this afternoon.

I don’t even want to write anymore.


A quote is a handy thing to have about, saving one the trouble of thinking for one’s self — a laborious business.

“A writer is like a tuning fork: We respond when we’re struck by something. The thing is to pay attention, to be ready for radical empathy. If we empty ourselves of ourselves we’ll be able to vibrate in synchrony with something deep and powerful. If we’re lucky we’ll transmit a strong pure notes, one that isn’t ours, but which passes through us. If we’re lucky, it will be a note that reverberates and expands, one that other people will hear and understand.”
~ Roxana Robinson

I’ve only had one day in my Creative Writing class with Jen Ochstein (who also writes a blog which I follow) and I can tell by the quote on her syllabus that I like her. I supposed that I may be a little biased since I read her blog but there is something quite endearing and carefree — without being careless — about her personality.

I can’t wait to work with you, Jen 🙂